On looking back, it looks like the public school education system that I grew up in has far more repercussions than I probably realised. The need (or the pressure) to keep up an appearance of performing, whether in studies or socialising or participating in discussions or conversations, seem relentlessly pervasive in every aspect of our lives. Why was I shunned or ignored in schools, or later in life, in social outings such as care group meetings? It seems that to be popular and extroverted is the goal of many of my peers. If friendship were to be built on such superficiality, I would rather be not part of it. On hindsight, maybe it was a blessing in disguise that I didn’t – and couldn’t – fit into the crowd, as much as it felt painful then.